Looking for a change

I have been considering getting a job I trained for instead of just throwing in the towel and seeking loan forgiveness. This means major changes in my habits as I prepare to become employable. The only thing going for me now is that I am more organized and able to think better. I also have less anxiety and frustration. There is hope.
For some time now I have been dealing with a lack of confidence and thoughts of worthlessness. Now I can't afford those thoughts. They were a little self-indulgent. It is time for me to be responsible and strong. I can do it.
 I need to get used to a work schedule so I will get back to volunteering every week. I already help my aging parents so I am used to doing something outside the home. I will also try scheduling my month so I can make the most of my time. I need to create the best work/home balance so I don't feel like I am being pulled in so many directions without a plan for getting things done.
So many times I have told myself “I can't.” Now I have decided to change that to “I can and will.” Why should having a mental illness be an excuse for not pursuing my dreams and goals?
If you have a dream, don't be afraid. Take aim and try. It is better to try and fail and to keep trying than to do nothing for the rest of your life. If you have a disability or an obstacle to your goals, seize the opportunity to grow and find a way past it. It is worth the risk.