Saturday, April 22, 2017

I can

How does a person move past all the good intentions and planning and preparation and actually act on it? This is where I have been for years, while life just goes by with no real change. So I have to act now, or things will stay the same.
I have a job lead but it scares me. It’s illogical, but anxiety disorders are illogical. I know what to do. I worry about it instead of doing it. This is unacceptable.
So I am now telling myself “I can” do what I have to do. I have to believe it. I am “abled”.  I have the resources and capacity to take on the responsibilities I have so far been unwilling to so.
So maybe I had some bad experiences working. I’ll take from that wisdom and have better experiences. I am enjoying better mental health these days and I think I can handle it.