Asking for directions

Well, I just hired career help.  It gives me hope, and isn’t too overwhelming to start fixing my
Resume and cover letter. I’m still keeping everything in perspective as I continue the search for
A career.  I know I can’t do anything I want, only what I am capable of doing with disabilities.

I can reach for it, make a goal, and persevere, but if it isn’t a good fit, a career won’t work. All the pieces
Need to fit. I can’t force it. I can’t manipulate it. All I can do is assess my skills and limitations honestly.
Then I can make a tentative plan.

It’s like a treasure hunt. There is a reward for my efforts. I just want to make educated choices
And make the right moves so I won’t get lost.

I’ve got to pray like I never have before, a prayer to God for a compass and GPS for my life.

Start living

I want to start living again

The best news I’ve had all day: my life matters. I don’t want to waste my biggest asset: a lifetime.

I have a renewed interest in living. I was feeling pretty bad for a couple of months. It was like I had fallen in a deep hole. Now I am out and getting my bearings. Still a little shaky, but I’m on my feet again raring to go.

I’ve gotten back into my internet marketing with some new goals. I want to write an e- book and promote it, along with this blog. And I want to try some more affiliate marketing as well, perhaps with Fivver. 

Depression and motivation

Whenever I go through periods of depression and sleepless nights, I seem to learn more about my life and how to make things better. I get more organized and thoughtful. I come to peace with more of my past.

At first I was fighting an uphill battle with the negative thoughts and painful memories that were assaulting my psyche. It was tiring and robbing me of sleep and focus. I was consumed with bad memories and horrible regret. 

Once I was able to confront those thoughts with positive and balanced thinking(and it took a lot of thinking),

I began to experience inner comfort from my private musings.

I am now grateful for the life I’ve lived so far. The pieces of the puzzle are finally coming into place. My life makes more sense now.

Able

Though I am disabled, I have struggled to find my strengths and how I am able to offer

My community something worthwhile. I may not be as quick and sharp as other

Perspective employees, but I am intelligent and witty. As my confidence grows as a result 

Of subsequent success, I see my contribution increase.

Learning new skill sets is a hurdle I have found more challenging than I care to

Admit, but I could probably overcome it with the same determination I’ve shown in my own mental health recovery. That has been very difficult; in fact, it would have been harder without 

The support of family and friends. My husband has been an angel to me.

Charitable goals

Charitable and relatable goals

The emotional benefits of giving are underrated. I’ve recently been writing in my new

Planner some ways I want to give this year, hoping to not only feel connected to

My fellow human beings, but to let go and not be a Scrooge. It doesn’t have to be

Christmas, it can be every day.

We all get appeals to give when we are reading our emails or scanning social

Media. We see it on TV. We may hear it in church, or see it in our snail mail- at

Least I do. Some actually hit home a little. I just realized it doesn’t hurt and might

Bless me to pitch in what I can, responsibly 

Winter Energy

Winter energy

I’ve been setting goals and writing to do lists since Christmas.  It’s been a real shot in

The arm, like a burst of energy. I know what I want to do and how I am going to do

It. This is my solution to procrastination.

I’ve made some tangible progress decluttering some of the unused rooms in my

House. 1 box of thrift store donations of 2 and one bag of clothing have been taken

Out. Trash has been picked up. Recycling has also been removed. Space has been

Found in 2 different rooms. Slowly I am finding a home for items I’d just shuffled way back

In the attic and other rooms.

I’ve been using a planner I found online that really helps me to keep my life on track. It’s called the Christian Planner. The money I spent for it was worth it. I’ve got all my goals and aspirations in

One place. At glance I can see the roadmap of 2020. 

Christmas 2019

This past Christmas was special because my mom has moved in and it was really a treat to celebrate the season as a family. It was fun to stuff our stockings with little gifts. We even had guest to share a meal, which my mom helped cook.
My favorite part of the day was handing Christmas cards to my husband and my mother, although they didn’t have cards for me. They were surprised, especially my husband who hasn’t bought me greeting card in years. It was cool to see the joy my cards gave them.
I’m glad to say I saved when buying presents for my family, which I found online. I redeemed Amazon gift cards and spent my Paypal balance on some nice finds.  I use Bing Rewards, Swagbucks, and the fitness app Achievement to earn money online.  I highly recommend using these legitimate and dependable income streams.